Funny thing, a Facebook memory popped up for me in my feed today. It was a quote from my endocrinologist she shared during my visit this date, 2 years ago. While the memory didn't necessarily evoke one of sadness or anger, per se. It did, however remind me of a very critical time in my life that I wasn't fully prepared, ready, nor equipped to handle.
You see, I remember the conversation with my doctor explicitly. I recall sharing extreme frustrations about work, not being or feeling happy, and being sad. A lot. I remember her saying, 'Re-frame life. See things in the positive'. I know, for me, that working out and eating well are acts of self-care. It's what sustains me and make me feel good about myself.
In retrospect, the conversation with my doctor was one of many that were hints, clues, or signs I was depressed,
Not only would I later learn from my now therapist, I was depressed. But I had also been suffering from panic and anxiety attacks, as well. In fact, 3.5 months later, I would experience a panic attack at another doctor's appointment with Dr. Harbutt. It was after that appointment, I promised to make the call to get the help she knew I needed. I also knew I needed help as I clearly could no longer deal.
