Facebook Memory

I remember reading that Facebook changed their algorithm that created the 'memories' feature on their platform. The reason being, memories mentioned weren't always positive or happy. In fact, feedback received was that users were 'triggered' by sad and unhappy events shared on Facebook.



Funny thing, a Facebook memory popped up for me in my feed today. It was a quote from my endocrinologist she shared during my visit this date, 2 years ago. While the memory didn't necessarily evoke one of sadness or anger, per se. It did, however remind me of a very critical time in my life that I wasn't fully prepared, ready, nor equipped to handle.

You see, I remember the conversation with my doctor explicitly. I recall sharing extreme frustrations about work, not being or feeling happy, and being sad. A lot. I remember her saying, 'Re-frame life. See things in the positive'. I know, for me, that working out and eating well are acts of self-care. It's what sustains me and make me feel good about myself.

In retrospect, the conversation with my doctor was one of many that were hints, clues, or signs I was   depressed,

Not only would I later learn from my now therapist, I was depressed.  But I had also been suffering from panic and anxiety attacks, as well. In fact, 3.5 months later, I would experience a panic attack at another doctor's appointment with Dr. Harbutt.  It was after that appointment, I promised to make the call to get the help she knew I needed.  I also knew I needed help as I clearly could no longer deal.